Respect..? It was that, more than the well-intended reassurances that cracked past the hardening shroud of his pain and forced his eyes up in surprise. His mouth still tingled with the heat of Kakashi's breath and needling negativity. Being jarringly parried just moments later with optimism drew his face to turn just enough to squint, and frown with a tightening around his eyes and little else. Chances and opportunities were wasted on men like himself, who squandered such gifts and spent them instead on others with little regard for their own life.
Having to justify his existence now without Sasuke, knowing he'd done nothing that wasn't twisted perversely to worsen Sasuke's life rather than enhance it -
it was an impossible task. He didn't know where to begin. Optimism wasn't something he'd ever dared to feel. Why had he come after Kakashi, knowing what needed to be done to save him? Why hadn't he walked away when it was shown as insignificant? It was questions he had no answers to. He didn't dare analyze it.
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Date: Saturday, 9 October 2010 08:43 pm (UTC)Having to justify his existence now without Sasuke, knowing he'd done nothing that wasn't twisted perversely to worsen Sasuke's life rather than enhance it -
it was an impossible task. He didn't know where to begin. Optimism wasn't something he'd ever dared to feel. Why had he come after Kakashi, knowing what needed to be done to save him? Why hadn't he walked away when it was shown as insignificant? It was questions he had no answers to. He didn't dare analyze it.